Matchbox Love

Since the day Samuel was conceived and came to life, I have been trying to find ways to connect with him and let his little heart know how much I love him. One of the ways that I have found I can effectively communicate this to him is by getting him cars. I carefully watched him during his first year, trying to figure out what it was that he was interested in. He showed an interest in one of my car brochures and it sparked the idea that maybe he would like a little matchbox car. So I got him one. The poor kid had been waiting his whole life for a toy as awesome as this. It was one of the first toys he ever really played with.

Since that time, we have bought him a new car just about every time we all go to the store together. It has been a very exciting thing were I have been able to communicate to Sam that I care about him and am interested in the things that bring joy to his heart.

Lately, things have changed and Samuel has decided that it is his right to get a car. He would say things to me like, "dad, you got to get this for me." I would say, "no, actually I dont." Poor kid, he seemed confused. All this time, he thought that he was the one that was making things happen - that it was his will and desire that got him a car - and missed the fact that it was his fathers heart, wanting to lay hold of his little heart, that made things happen.

I was thinking about all this when the Lord spoke to me and said, "My children often read the bible and find things that I have done and said and then think that they have me figured out. They think that I can be analyzed and reduced down to principles and rules, and then try to tell Me and everyone else, 'you've got to do it this way.' Well, I don't. Don't misinterpret my actions. I am after your heart Jacob."

Our Father is trying to lay hold of our little hearts. Since the beginning, He has used many different means and ways, but His goal has always been the same. The Father is trying to reconcile the world to Himself and He made the most powerful display of that in the life of His Son, Jesus.